Introduction

    I loved him...

 Hell...

 I've loved them all! 

I gave all of me... Wholeheartedly... 

To each often...

 From the start... I mean... Who does that?

 Like I haven't even shopped his store before... Why

 would I pay for EVERYTHING UP FRONT... 

Never having sampled his line of shit! 

(Drum Drum Drum) 

This is the story of: how I found My Muchness.... 

As I sat there and called all my pieces back to me while lazily lighting my cigar... Again... I felt almost detached from any real healing coming in... I never dreamed the next step of my life would be so bold, so steep, so... WoW! Fucking Real!!!! Why? why I had asked myself... And before I could even verbally form the whole question my answer came ringing through like a Catholic Mass Bell through town. 

Because this is the only way you would learn the lesson Nikki the only way you would remember and the only way you would feel compelled to share it with not only the world... But your Self as well.